so many questions.

It's true what they say... you'll KNOW when you start feeling your baby move. I've been questioning it for about a week now, but in the last few days I've realized that this is without a doubt the real deal. As I'm typing this, she's either swimming laps or practicing somersaults. It's the strangest, creepiest, most wonderful, amazing thing I've ever experienced. The reality of this whole mommy situation has skyrocketed. Her daddy isn't very happy that he can't feel it yet, but he'll get his chance soon enough! I just love her so much.

It's about time to for us to start thinking about the important things. A list of questions race through my mind every day, and without fail, I add at least five more by the time I go to sleep at night.

Do we really need to take a birthing class?

When do we tour the hospital?

What is my birth plan? Do I even have one?

What gear will she actually NEED as a newborn?

What diapers will fit her best?

Do I really need a $800 stroller/car seat for her to be safe?

How many outfits will she go through in a day? Will she ever even wear half the crap people buy her?

Will daycare or a nanny be the better option for her?

Should I meet multiple pediatricians before I commit to one?

Will Scout eat all of her toys?

Do I really want people visiting us in the hospital?

Will I be able to keep her name a secret until she's born? Will Payton kill me if I let it slip?

What the heck do I put in my hospital bag, realistically? Shouldn't Payton have a hospital bag, too?

I've had such an easy pregnancy so far... will this baby give me a run for my money when she's born?

Shouldn't I be more worried, stressed, freaked out, or panicked? Why am I so calm?

Where do we start? It's completely overwhelming. But, for some very odd reason, I'm not stressed and I'm not scared. Sure, I'm anxious because this brings a level of responsibility you can't exactly prepare for, but I'm at peace. I never thought I was a "go with the flow" type of person, but that's the attitude I've taken on with this pregnancy. Maybe it's because our lives are crazier than ever and there are a million other things to think about. Maybe it's because I'm confident that we're as ready as we'll ever be to become parents. Maybe it's because I have a husband that is already the best daddy I could ever dream of for my children. Maybe it's because I've never been more excited about anything in my life. I don't know. But I do know that all of these questions will get answered and we'll handle every bit of it to the best of our abilities. We'll love this girl as hard as we can for the rest of our lives, and that's never been a question.

sugar and spice...

... and everything nice; that's what little GIRLS are made of!

At our anatomy scan ultrasound last Thursday, we found out we are having a baby girl! More importantly, this tiny human is measuring right on track for her August 10th due date. She looks absolutely perfect, which is the best news we could ever hear. I could have watched her squirm on that screen all day long. We saw her cross her legs and put her hand behind her head, and I just enjoyed seeing her as they measured every little piece of her precious body. How can I love something so much just by a black and white image on a screen? I can't wait to meet her.

Everyone thought she was going to be a boy. I didn't have a "feeling" either way, but we have had SO MANY girls in both of our families recently (and by so many, I mean eight in a row with only one boy in the mix...) that we just assumed it was time for a boy! I saw that she was a girl before the tech said it, and I was surprised that I felt so shocked! I don't think I would have been shocked if she said boy. After that, all I felt was pure excitement and happiness. I have dreamed of having a daughter for as long as I can remember - what girl hasn't? I hope she loves me as much as I love my mom. I also secretly hope she loves horses, although Payton feels MUCH differently :) To think that Snowy could teach my daughter even some of what he taught me brings tears to my eyes. I love that my mom and I will get to share that with her (even if she decides it's not her cup of tea - we've got to try!). Also, my brother never once accepted the fact that he could possibly have a nephew, so I'm absolutely thrilled that I get to give him the niece he wanted. I can't wait to see him as an uncle! As for my dad (you can call him Big G from now on) and Payton, I can't wait to laugh at them as they try not to cry. She's going to steal their hearts from the second she's born, I just know it!

By the way, she does have a name. A really good name. But, we aren't sharing it yet. Sorry!

I will say, though, it seems like everyone else in the world feels bad for us because we're having a girl. I have pretty much only gotten the, "Oh, you're in for a treat! Girls are a handful!" comments. Why do other women feel like they can say anything to pregnant ladies? Just because you had a certain type of child, doesn't mean everyone else will have the same experience. If I wanted your opinion or advice, I'd ask for it. I try not to let it bother me, but I've wanted to slap a lot of people in the last four months. That will probably get worse as the weeks go on...

In other news, we got the official closing date for our new house! Dry wall is up, siding is up, and it's all so exciting (and beautiful). We also put our current house up for rent yesterday - yikes! There is so much going on in our lives right now and I'm trying not to stress about it. Let's just hope it all continues to go smoothly!

Also, Scout is doing much better. We finally figured out that he sliced his chest open on a rolled up pile of old chain link that was buried under a pile of leaves. We had no idea it was there - it must have been there since we moved in. He's been wearing his tshirt to prevent him from messing with the wound, so I think that's helped to heal it. He's going to the vet today to get it checked, but I think we'll get a good report. Poor baby... that was not a fun experience!

house and baby update

The ice and snow may have prevented me from going to work for the last two weeks (#freevacation), but life never stopped moving! Our house is looking amazing - the weather slowed them down a little bit, but I believe our predicted closing date remains the same at this point. We have been able to walk through the house a few times now and it is so much fun to see each room! My favorite "room" is the pantry...

Our pre-drywall orientation is next week, which means the plumbing and electrical will be finished and walls can start going up! I'm sure the builder will just LOVE Payton - I imagine he'll be bringing his tape measure, level, square, and many other tools to make sure everything is perfect. I laugh, but he's pretty nice to have around :)

Here she is, in all her glory!

As for LBC (Little Baby Craddock), he/she is g.r.o.w.i.n.g. People at work are starting to ask me if I'm expecting and claim that they "noticed a few weeks ago." Really? Because I wasn't showing a few weeks ago... rude. Anyways, I definitely look pregnant now. I'm 4 months (or 17 weeks) today. We find out if we are having a boy or a girl in 9 days, 21 hours, and 50 minutes. Or March 12th at 8:45am, whatever. For some reason, we're both feeling girl this week. We've kind of thought boy all along, so I don't know what changed - we're just so excited to finally know!

I'm still feeling great. I'm not sleeping as well as I used to, but I have always slept like a rock so that really isn't so bad. It might have something to do with the fact that I fall asleep on the couch every night for 2 hours before bed. And I definitely have lots of strange dreams! I haven't really had many cravings, but my current favorite food items are pickled jalapenos, pink lemonade, and pineapple (not all together). I really miss sandwiches, but a veggie sub can satisfy that if I'm desperate! Water is my friend. I can absolutely tell if I haven't had enough water because my fingers start to feel swollen and I get a headache. That seems to go away as soon as I drink a glass, but my body definitely tells me when I need it. I'm most excited about feeling baby move here in the next few weeks, and finally being able to call him/her by a (real) name! 

Stay tuned for gender announcement next week! Are you team boy or team girl?